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ARDYN IZUNIA

Ardyn Izunia. Professor of law. Lord of law. Liege of law. The one grading your papers. Leave a message.

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[daemonized]

[And at that, it's Ardyn's turn to pause. Both sides of the coin being relevant was a bit like the conversation he had with Dave last month. Being told simply to accept who you once were, and all that terrible things that came with it. Easier said than done, of course, when some of the things you remembered clashed so badly with one's current personality. Difficult to reconcile, and yet what Pitou says harkens back to this, in a strange way.]

And if you've no king to serve here?

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[ Why would you say such a cruel thing. Pitou's brows twitch, furrowing briefly. ]

There's no king here.

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[He's isn't trying to be cruel, but he's trying to parse out exactly how Pitou plans on going about accepting who they're becoming. He's frowning.]

So you'll find yourself new purpose? Or someone else to serve?

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I don't know.

[ Their attention turns down into their dwindling coffee. ]

I suppose we'll see how strong my biological imperatives become. I was always somewhat human, but... I don't know.

[ There had been doubt that the ants could ever truly behave by the rules of society. ]

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[It isn't really an answer, but it's the only one he could expect. Their whole world was filled with I don't knows these days, and it was frustrating.]

Preferably not strong enough to instill any frustrating restlessness in you. I should hope that you lean back into your more human qualities if or when that happens.

[He considers something.]

Your opinion of both of your halves being equally important -- would you apply that to everyone else, as well?

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Preferably.

[ But: they don't know. And they won't know until it becomes to exhibit, or not. ]

I think it's up to everyone else to decide that. But... that they're likely biased in a way I'm not.

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It's your lack of bias that gives you a unique perspective on the matter, though. Everyone else wishes to hold onto who they are, for fear of being erased or overridden.

[Though he speaks as if this does not apply to him, it definitely does.]

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[ They lick their teeth slowly. ]

I have always determined myself in defiance of others. [ In defiance of the tragedy that had started their human life, the one people whispered about, assured it would haunt them. ] I can make my own decisions about who and what I am. I don't have to be a woman. I don't have to be a human. I don't have to obey.

[ They look away again. They usually don't say those kinds of things out loud. They preferred not to defend their choices to others. ]

Maybe that was easier to do, when deep down I was beholden to something else entirely.

[ A sentiment they find distasteful. ]

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[Ardyn views it as trying to understand their character and their thoughts on the subject better. The reason why Pitou can take this all with a grain of salt, and only find issue with potentially being lied to where their past is concerned -- not the fact that change itself might descend upon them without realization.

A hand comes up to pinch at the bridge of his nose.]

If you were beholden to it at all. How much of nature will overtake nurture? I can't hope to answer that.

[He shifts in his seat.]

I envy you, however. You view it in such a straightforward way.

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If there's one thing we know, it's how much we don't know about the situation.

[ So what's the point of getting too upset about it. There are thoughts, irritations, things niggling in the back of their mind, but in the end they don't know if they're outraged yet, or not. ]

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Back to "wait and see".

[That's vaguely irritating, but so often has he fallen upon this way of thinking (because he has no choice) that he just accepts it with an almost-eye roll.]

So seems to be the norm.

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It wouldn't be, if Retrospec would just own up.

[ Pitou wants to see their fucking laboratories... ]

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That may be asking for too much.

[He recalls what he had been told when he spent a month practically sequestered to the bunker in the forest. And what he's read from their somewhat more recent posts.]

They claim us knowing too much too fast will be the death of us all. For what little that matters now.

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I think I can handle it.

[ Maybe. Or maybe history would repeat itself and this morally ambiguous kitty cat would wield their knowledge irresponsibly. ]