[it's obvious that once the news of the...incident breaks, when Grell sees people in the hospital - Anya, Rosalind, Dante - that there's an undercurrent of strain in Grell's demeanor. something that shifted harshly, expressed in silences that are a half beat too long, and finally now, when she goes to find Ardyn, her face unreadable.]

I have come to the conclusion that I am going to go out, and most likely come back bruised from picking a fight with someone.

[no preface to that.]

Else I think I'll feel my mind break into pieces.